Ok, so I have only a few days left before I leave for my mission’s trip. It has been a long journey for me to get to this place and yet, I don’t really know where I am. I am leaving to chase after God. For He has called me to himself. He is taking me into the jungle, to show me His wonderful creation. I will get to see His face! I will see it in the eyes of an orphan, in the smile of a widow, and in the heart throb of a prisoner who is crying for love. He is taking me out of my world and putting me far from everything I have known so that I will have to lean on Him for everything I need. He is placing me with strange people in order to chisel away the parts of me that are not like Him. He is the only familiar thing that I will have. I am excited, but at the same time, can I bear it? Will Jesus be enough? Will I have the stamina to minister to other people, when I will be venerable and needy myself? Is it possible for God to use a broken vassal to minister to other people? I am going to be laid bare; all of my hurts and cracks will be opened because all of the walls I hide behind will be broken. I will be as helpless as a baby. And for these reasons, God is guiding me away. To show me His character and what I can do through Him. To prove to my inmost being He is who He said He is, and that He will do what He said He would do. God is going to lead me to a place where I can fall in love with Him and where He can heal what has been broken. I know in my heart He is going to do a great work in me this summer.